Day 13 - Eat, Pray, Love (Work Version)
I've had this incredible top for months and finally wore it for the first time. Wear your cute things and stop saving them for the perfect occasion!
October 7th, 2024
I cannot believe it’s been 3 whole freaking months since I’ve mustered up the courage to get back on here. Boy, what a wild 3 months it has been.
Let’s start with a quick rundown of what I’ve been up to: had the worst rest of the trip in Seattle, GOT LAID OFF, cut my hair real short, went to Jackson Hole with a dear friend, grandma died, went BACK to Seattle for a much needed redemption trip, booked a last minute trip to central Europe, and began the job hunt. It’s been a flurry and I kept meaning to share everything through here or my (not so) new Instagram page! But I kept telling myself that I don’t know what I would post or that I don’t even know how to make a reel so who would even pay attention since the algorithm would not be in my favor. Excuses, excuses, and more excuses.
Why are we like this? Why am I like this? I’ve procrastinated my entire life. How come I can’t get myself to change or approach the problem differently? There is fascinating literature and research regarding this behavior us humans have. I’m sick of it. I’m going for it. I’ll write, I’ll post dumb carousels, and watch a YouTube video on how to make a freaking reel. I’m tired of thinking and not doing. I will build, grow, fail, rebuild, hit a wall, create, probably flop, and keep doing it until it becomes miserable.
When I was in Budapest at the end of September, I watched Eat, Pray, Love for the first time. It resonated with me deeply but instead of facing the same problems Liz faced with her love life, I’m facing them with my career. Every other aspect of my life runs smoothly except for my fruitless devotion to a job that doesn’t serve me. Although I’m not quite sure the European approach to work would suit me either, I’m being so incredibly thoughtful and careful with the next step in my career. What I had been doing in the past hadn’t been working and was driving me crazy! I miss having hobbies and logging off at 5:30pm. I look forward to entrenching myself in run clubs, swing dance syndicates, books, learning languages, and digitalizing my closet. Even though I’m nearing a dreadful mark of 2 months been unemployed (and have my severance run out), I’m looking at this as an opportunity rather than a step backward. And I’m pretty fucking excited.
